~for you my dear~

i love you not because of your looks
[because i know 'pretty' is just a perspective
and that perspective can change easily].
i love you not because of your character
[because i know your character in front of screen
is just 10% of your real character].
i love you not because of who you are
[because i never know who you are,
i never know who the real you inside your body].
i love you not because of your personality
[because i know personality can change
it change because of reality, pain, love].

i love you, i support you, i miss you
[i adore you from a distance]
not because of who you are
but because who i am when your musics:-
become my rest area from pain, emptiness
become my temporary escapism from reality
become my alternative universe to find happiness.

“Closing your eyes isn't going to change anything. Nothing's going to disappear just because you can't see what's going on. In fact, things will even be worse the next time you open your eyes. That's the kind of world we live in. Keep your eyes wide open. Only a coward closes his eyes. Closing your eyes and plugging up your ears won't make time stand still.'
-Haruki Murakami , Kafka on the Shore